mel mel's BLAH BLAH land

Mugging is interesting
In one way, I feel that i do learn things during my uni years as i study and scrutinise every detail in my notes
In another, its torturous cos i have to SCRUTINISE and not relax and take it as just another reading material!

staying in hall and mugging into late nights are fun! lol. with all the little little tinge of humour that my room mates bring. HAHA

and its even better! if mugging into late nights give me dreams that i hoped could turn into reality!
dreams that gives my a sense of euphoria within!
its a virtual world where u can do anything u like and heck everyone's reaction and then wake up! and realise nth actually happened.
but wad really happened was... u get to feel wad you might never ever feel in reality before.

if only life is always a dream.
i never wanna get out of it at all.

signing off
3:20 PM

i m convinced.
after so long.
tt is futile and taking a toll on myself.

i wished long and hoped hard.
but its obvious.
so i m convinced.
dead convinced.

somethings will nvr return again.

signing off
11:46 PM

do i always love to commit mistakes which i already know IS a mistake?

and then let it continue because it is MY mistake.

am i doing it because everyone thinks that it is right?

even when i am wrong

then wad if.

i wanna do sth that i so think its right

but is wrong to everyone.

even so, i think its still worth it.

but i am lacking... courage.

so shld i continue? or shld i just face the music?

signing off
6:42 PM

what is kinship? what is love?
does it mean just visiting your elders only during special occasion?
does it mean not giving them a damn at other times then?
does it mean not even a call from u?
does it mean no visits at all?
does it mean just coming for dinner and then saying byebye and disappear for half of the year?
then how the hell is this called kinship?

cousins, aunties and uncles.
i don't see commitment from them. i only see it from ME!
and i am not afraid to say it.
preach whatever you say.
they don't and i am pissed.
they don't deserve anything.

有一个人，
曾经让我知道：
生气
伤心
心痛
焦急
被爱
开心
关心
幸福
不知所措
无奈

这个人，找不到了。

signing off
11:47 PM

this post is a bit late to usher in year 2009 but it's better than nth!
since i am able to fork out time to blog while i am alone in hall. =)
most of the time, either i am too busy, or i am too lazy LOL.

ok! YEAR 2009!
as the new year comes.. i definitely have resolutions to make.
but the only major and main one will be making BREAKTHROUGHS.
cos i think life has been rather boring and mundane for me.
so it's time for breakthroughs, coming out of the old me.
i wanna change! change change change! so pls give me courage and bravery for all my breakthroughs! =)

and i spent the whole of 2008 without momo. it's been an achievement.
with one less person to manage and support the hosusehold
and i am proud tt the KONG family survived well. =)
well.. it's the only present we can give to her - by living well. hees

and for econs. into YEAR 2 SEM 2. lol. i have a rapid promotion after the hols. hees.
from YR 1 SEM 1 to YR 2 SEM 2.
hopefully i will be able to do better. BETTER AND BETTER. yupps.
pull up my gpa and i wanna go for INSTEP!
so pls pls pls. i wanna mug hard too! =) get gd grades and be a better person.
is tt too hard a resolution? hees

and to sum it up. HAPPY 2009! lol.
away with 2008. the yr with no achievements. THIS YR WILL BE ONE OF BREAKTHROUGHS! =)

signing off
5:56 PM

mel mel is blogging!

it's been quite some time and in a few days time... 2008 will be gone!
time passes damn quickly.
i remember blogging bout bye bye 2007 quite some time ago and now! POOF! 2008 is gone too.

anyway. christmas this yr was HORRIBLE. TERRIBLE. DISGUSTING.
spent the whole day in bed. cos i was damn damn damn sick.
woke up with the world spinning ard me. i was so giddy that i puked the whole morning.
the feeling sucks.
giddy is worse than headache.
at least u have panadol to cure headache. but NTH TO CURE giddyness. =(
so i had to forgo meeting up with the hall girls and also miss the phs gathering. hahas.

but 2008 has been quite a gd year for me.
it's not damn gd but just gd.
not a lotta acheivements though. HAHAS.
but 2009 will be gd! i guess.
there is not much looking forward to in 2009. not as much as i anticipated 2008.
but it's still a gd time to make wishes. and hope they all come true!
i shall wish tt christmas will be better nxt yr. hahas.

and i am beginnig to realise that i MIGHT BE addicted to gambling. hahas.
mahjong mahjong mahjong!!
i cannot reject pple who jio me for mahjong. lol!
i guess i have 2 hobbies now! SNOOKER AND MAHJONG.
talking bout snooker.. hmmm... shld i get a new cue??? but i cannot get use to any cues and i still like my cue. though it is not performing up to my expectations.

and and and! i finished the whole series of twilight. LOL
i know i know. everyone's reading it. but i am the few who has FINISHED IT! lol.
my lousy sis is still stuck at eclipse cos she dun like the fact tt edward and bella is getting married. STH'S WRONG WITH HER. hahah i hope she does not read this.

and so. THE NEW YR IS COMING! plans for new yr eve! WOOHOO

signing off
2:38 PM

and there u go!
tt's the title of my blog content tonight. LOL
i am truly bored
i have things i wanna write
but i dun wanna share.

how selfish and ironic is tt.
hahas

my sis bought the book TWILIGHT! and yes yes yes. i know how's everyone crazy bout the book. but since she owns the book, i jumped onto the bandwagon and started reading too.
HAHAS
and to my sister... i think it was the LOVE tt drew u to the book. not the VAMPIRE. lol
cos there was little on vampire. more of how someone can want another so much and so crazily.
so much so tt life aint impt.

maybe it wasn't anything bout the book tt drew me to it. maybe it's something else. hahas
I AM SELFISH.

signing off
12:07 AM